It's hard to believe it's been 5 months since I last verbal spewed here...
I think of posting... think of writing... think of unburdening... then I don't.
It's been a hard year but a good year, too.
I've been distanced from people I just couldn't have in my world for my own protection, I've made new friends, I've changed jobs (not as easy as it was in my 20's - far more scary as you get older and more aware of your "responsibilities")... I've seen old relationships renewed and spent a year and some by myself just learning how to be alone again.
It's been a hard year because growing and maturing is never easy... being lonely isn't easy... feeling isolated is never easy... but then, it's been a good year because I've grown, I've matured, I've realized some more of my failings, I've learned that there's a difference between being alone and being lonely, and I'm more comfortable with me than I've probably ever been.
I still see some of those folks I distanced myself from in social media and I laugh at just how batshit crazy one is, think how very much I miss others, and feel content inside for the others who I know it was a good thing to get away from.
What's all this to say? It's to say that I still have a lot to write here; I've missed it, but for now I'm content to just check in and say hi.
